Saturday, May 23, 2009

The mysterious unknown...


Over the past couple weeks I have been trying to wrap my mind aroung what has been happening in my life. Something that I tend to do often because that is just the type of thinker I am. So many things have changed and are shifting, and is bringing me into a place where I am uncertain as to what comes next. I have come to realize that this is life-you never really know what comes next or what is supposed to happen. The image that comes to my mind whenever I think about this is the final scene in the movie American Beauty where the white plastic bag is just floating in the wind, allowing the wind to guide it where it will, without any resistance. This is true faith.


I am right now in a place where I never thought I would be and is totally different from what I expected. My very day life has taken on an appearance that is totally unlike the way it was, I am surrounded by people that a different from the people I am used to and my life just has a different feel to it.


I have also intentionally begun to do things differently and consciously to attain different results. But it is all a process and everyone that comes into my life helps me to grow. At the beginning of my yoga class the other day, my teacher told me that one must be authentic in relationships and we need relationships to help us to grow. Each person has a role to play in helping us to push our boundaries of comfortableness and open us up to who we are meant to become. It's all about choosing carefully who we decide to invite into out lives and the type of energies we choose to


My horoscope this week perfectly describes the moment that I am in (btw, if you haven't ever checked out Rob Brezny's horoscope, please do, he's fabulous!):


"All the problems we face in the United States today," said comedian and presidential candidate Pat Paulsen, "can be traced to an unenlightened immigration policy on the part of the American Indian." With that as your inspiration, Pisces, I urge you to take inventory of your own "immigration policy." It's an excellent time to do so, astrologically speaking. Here are some questions to guide you. What influences do you allow to pour into your sphere? Are they beneficial for your long-term mental health? What people do you invite to share your resources? Do they bring out the best in you? Do you have smart boundaries that keep out the bad stuff and welcome in the good?


Today, I learned about how imprtant boundaries are when trying to walk in the light. Walking in the light is trying, there are tender moments and growth pains but in the end it is all worth it.


Love and light,


Saran


Wednesday, May 20, 2009

You get what you give....




Today I was told that you get what you put in. Open your heart with joy and it will be given back to you.


Light and Love,


Saran

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Feelings....




I've just realized that it has been over a month since I started this blog. I feel as if so much has happened in this time; so much has changed.

I am, right now, sitting in a moment of great change. So many magical things have been happening lately. So many magical, serenfdipitous moments that I am still trying to wrap my mind around. So much learning, a new things to see and opporutnities and chances, openings and beginning as well as endings.

The one thing that is resonating through every moment though is my feelings. Feelings tell me the truth about what I think about things. I think that feelings reveal what your soul is trying to tell you about a particular person or circumstance, no matter how hard you try to ignore it or pretend for it to be different from what it is.

See the thing is I always forget how important feelings are and I am not at a place yet where I automatically know to trust it. Something happens, it makes me feel "weird" and I don't think "Gee, perhaps this is trying to tell me something."

I am learning more and more every day just how important trusting my feelings is. They are like the GPS of the human body. They tell you what you should do in a particular situation because they tell the truth. And I've learned to trust that if it doesn't make me FEEL good, it probably isn't. And I just have to trust that without trying to explain it.

Today, I am learning to trust what I feel, because it is the truth.

Love and light,

Saran

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Today my favourite author responded to my question on his blog about a book I read called The Witch of Portobello. His blog can be found at http://paulocoelhoblog.com/.

Here it is....

Today’s Question by the reader : Saran
Published by
Paulo Coelho
on May 12, 2009
in Q&A. 1 Comment

My question:

I have just finished reading the Witch of Portobello. It took me some time to get through, largely because I knew that there was a lot for this book to teach me and my eyes and heart were not ready to receive it. In the book, there is a discussion about the snake that eats its own tail as an image of reinvention or rebirth. I feel like I am going through this process at this time. What is the one thing that I must remember during this time which is full of doubts and fears but at the same time curiosity and excitement?

Response:

You should always bear in mind the goal of this transformation, without shutting away the process. It’s actually in this very moment that you can grasp the wider meaning of your life.
I had this realization while doing the pilgrimage to Saint James. I was, in the beginning obsessed with my sword and so wanted to get straight to the end of the journey. It was actually by living the journey in all its aspects that I was finally able to find my sword. Both elements then must be present in your spirit in this time of change.

Today I was reminded that the universe is always trying to show you the way and that it is always present.

Love and light,

Saran

Thursday, May 7, 2009

How much is too much??




Is there ever such a thing as giving too much of yourself? I think there is especially when you are not being appreciated by the other person-regardless of who it is.


Today I find myself contemplating how much of myself I choose to give because in the end, for me at least, it is about choosing to love myself enough to really see what is happening to avoid unnecessary pain. It is easy to put on blinders and pretend I don’t see what I see but in the end, I only end up getting hurt. And anything that causes hurt or makes me feel bad is not self-love.

This reminds me of a poem that I am across while studying in the library. I randomly opened a book and it fell on a page that had the following poem:

There's a hole in my sidewalk

Chapter 1

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.It takes me forever to find my way out.

Chapter 2

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But it still isn’t my fault.
It still takes ma very long time to get out.

Chapter 3

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it there.
I fall in...its a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

Chapter 4

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

Chapter 5

I walk down another street.

Today I learned that if it doesn’t make me feel good then it’s not right - I should start walking down another street.


Love and light,

Saran