I am finding that I am having a lot of trouble saying what I mean lately. I mean actually articulating my words and saying what's in my heart, especially with those who are close to me and who I should be totally present with, always.
I had the opportunity recently to attend a conference that discussed resiliency amongst people who are living with addictions and mental illness conducted by Dr. Gabor Mate, who is an absolute genius (if you get a chance to read his books, please do so!). He talks about how one of the ways to provide support to these people is to be fully present, authentic and genuine. In other words, to be human and open to showing your genuine humanity.He discussed many other significant things throughout the lecture that could not only be applied to his clientele but could also apply to life in general. From his lecture, the idea of being fully present really sat with me.
I was speaking with a friend about just how easy it is zone out, shut down during life (in particular though, I am referring to my current school experience). It is so easy to disconnect, numb out and not feel. I have been struggling with this habit of mine because I find that in so doing, I miss a lot of what I am meant to experience. And I also find that I have to tune back in at some point, especially because I am surrounded by such beautiful, deep feeling, authentic, purposely awake people.
By the way, Gabor Mate would probably say that all of these habits go back to our childhood and are a result of adaptive, protective mechanisms that we used to protect or defend ourselves.
Part of me agrees with what he says, but for me, it is all a part of the journey.
So I guess I have to decide: am I human or am I a dancer?
Love and light,
S
Side note #1:
I have realized that I have been writing this blog for almost a year now. It was initially supposed to be for six months. Looking back I see how much things have changed for me. I'm realizing that it is nice to have a record to look back on to capture those magical moments!
Side note #2:
I have recently been seeing a homeopathic doctor and the results have been amazing!! I am so grateful to have had the opportunity to meet my doctor and feel blessed to have been able to receive the benefits of this life changing practice! It really has changed my life!
