where am i at?

right now
in this moment,
this moment is all i have.
unknowns fold in and i'm not ok
with just continuing with the way things are.
pretending that i don't realize
that something is missing.

everything has to be deep for me
because there is always meaning
and i am always learning.

the waiting is the hard part....

but i trust.

because i always know,
that in the end
all will be revealed.

it really is not about the destination
(because i WILL get there)
but it is ALL about the journey.

and just when you think that you are comfortable,
it really isn't an end at all.
it's just another beginning....

and so it is!

love and light,
s

Oh summer...where art thou?

So it is not suprising that winter is starting to get to me.

I'm so not a winter person. And this year has not started off too well. So unwell in fact, that both myself and my cousin have decided that the real new year is going to start at the beginning of February when the Chinese New Year begins.

A friend called the other day and told me that January 18th is the most depressing day of the year...and he was just calling to cheer me up. It is moments like these that help with these long, cold winter days and nights.

As with everything, winter is just a moment that will pass; just something to go through. But even though I know this, while I'm going through it, it's still a pain in the ass :)

Love and light,

S